Wednesday, January 14, 2009

I have failed

I was raised as a Catholic, my sisters and I went to Sunday school, Tuesday night CCD...of course we were all baptized, had First Communion and then Confirmation. It was some time after my Confirmation that I stopped going to church. I didn't stop believing, I just stopped attending. Seriously, it's not fun going to Catholic Mass. Stand up, sit down, kneel, Peace be with you... I'm not opposed to going, I just don't go. I think in the last 10 years I 've been to church maybe 3 times. Why am I bringing this up? Because I have failed. My sisters both carried on the tradition by torturing their children with the same up bringing that we had. I didn't. Out of my three children only Teenager is baptized and that's only because mother made it happen. Again, I'm not really into going to church.

All that being said...during the holidays Princess came running up to me and proclaimed, "Mommy! We're learning about Jesus!". Um...okay. I'll admit it. I was shocked. My kids go to public school, hello separation of church and state. Anyway, she was so excited to be learning about Jesus, so excited that she wants to learn more. Now, let me just say that I'm Mexican. I know, it's not big shocker. We Mexicans happen to have a um well, let's just say that we happen to believe certain things. So much so that this one Marine I worked with (yes, he was Mexican) once told me that the reason I was having such behavioral issues with Bear was that he is not baptized. Is there any truth to that? Maybe, I mean afterall, Teenager is baptized and I've never had problems with him. Okay, back to my story. I was having a conversation with Princess about Jesus when, out of nowhere, Bear turns around and says, "Yeah, and who is this "God" guy everyone is talking about???". There you have it ladies and epic failure. I was raised Catholic and even though I have a relationship with children have no idea who or what "God" is. I'm going to hell. Yes, I know I'll be in good company as all my friends will be there waiting on me, but that's not the point. Bear and Princess have asked me to start taking them to church...ughughughugh. Did I mention...I don't go to church.


violet said...

I wouldn't say that you hav failed?! Not yet anyway. Church is not a bad thing it can help you get that little bit of exercise you have been wanting to do.
It will take you a few times of going to get back into the feel of going and to get used to the people, but if the kids want to go you should take them. It will let them know someone else is watching them. That they are never truely alone.
We have a young priest at our church he is pretty entertaining for the kids, just so you know if you decide to take them sit near the front. Father said he has noticed kids do better when they can see what is going on. let me tell you it's true. If we get there late and sit in the back i struggle with the kids!
And even in the catholic church it is okay to wear jeans to church now.

I'm Just a Girl said...

Hi Violet! Jeans? To CHURCH?! Catholic church??? Oh my hell, my father is probably turning over in his grave right about now. I'm not sure I could ever bring myself to allow the little ones to wear jeans to church. LOL! Thanks for the parents must have figured the sitting in the front thing out too because if we were going to be late dad just stayed home. :D